Sorry for the delay

I know it's been a while since I've posted, so there are a few details to get caught up on. 4 more days until our girls' birthdays. I never thought I'd say this, but time flies. After all of this it seems so soon now. I cannot wait to see what these babies look like, and I especially can't wait to see them in their daddy's arms. I am 33 weeks & 4 days today and so amazed at how far we've come.
On Thursday, the girls movements seemed kind of crazy to me, just not the norm- so my doctor had me go back on the monitors mid afternoon to just make sure everything looked ok, and it did. But they keep telling me if anything feels different to let them know and since we are so close to our delivery, we need to be extra cautious. Talk about pressure.
Then Saturday, my mom came up to visit and gave me my last mani/pedi before the girls arrive. Sometime in the afternoon, I had a racing heartbeat in my ear, and then it started pulsating. I felt fine that day, but never had experienced that before. My nurse came in around 720 to put me on the monitors and  Baby A got right on, then when she was locating baby B, something didn't sound right. Her heartbeat was irregular. I immediately felt a wave of heat take over my body, trying not to but completely panicking. She had been moving so crazy lately so all I could envision was her getting tangled and trying to get out of it. After about 30 minutes of listening to this irregular heart beat, my nurse left to call the on call doctor (of course my doctors wouldn't be working this weekend). When she walked out of the room, I immediately lost it and was crying and then 3 other nurses came in the room with a Doppler to listen closely to the heartbeat and confirmed it was irregular, then they put an IV line in me just in case I would be delivering soon.  It wast the scariest thing I've ever been through.  My brother was on his way to my house so he just came to the hospital and then Dallas got here shortly after, which was a relief because he handles everything way better than I do. My brother stayed over at our house and took care of the dogs so Dal could stay at the hospital over night with me.  Dal didn't get too much sleep either, he's a tad too tall for these chairs they expect the husbands to sleep in.
   

They left me on the monitors through the night, so naturally I did not sleep for a second. I couldn't take my eyes off the screen that shows the tracings. Hearing her heart like that was so gut wrenching and she kept rolling around inside of me, I just wanted her to be still and calm down - I'm sure she was hoping for the same from her mama.
Finally after a few hours, I think she fell asleep and she started sounding better with less frequent irregularities. The on call doctor ordered monitoring 2 times a shift, so 4 per day as well as biophysical ultrasounds which measure my amniotic fluid, the girls' breathing and movement. This will give me a lot more reassurance so I'm happy to do it all, and relieved I won't have to be on continuous monitoring yet, because that one night was enough. Now they have to leave the IV in my arm which is uncomfortable and annoying to shower with.
So yesterday I had the ultrasound and she pointed out baby B's hair on the screen. Again, started crying :) I was exhausted and that was just so amazing. I love these girls. The day shift monitoring is fine, but that second round in the middle of the night isn't fun, I just wish I could sleep. I only have 4 more days before these girls arrive and I wish I could just get a restful sleep in before they get here. We will see. My specialist said everything looks fine and there's no sign of cord compromise (I guess because there weren't recurrent decelerations) so that made me feel better. I just never want to hear that irregularity again. They've both been tracing well since that episode so we are just praying for a few more days-FRIDAY!!!
I am going to miss being pregnant and feeling these miracles grow inside of me, but just looking forward to holding and loving these girls. Also excited to get into normal clothes again, get my hair done, and be at home with my other princess puppy and my 2 boys...



I can't believe we are going to be parents. It's such a roller coaster of emotions be so excited to see them finally, but hope they don't arrive early; to have so much back pain bc they are growing, but hoping for every extra ounce of weight. I want these girls to be so happy and feel so much love every day. I want to be the best mother I can be and keep them safe for as long as I can.